Confusion

Life is confusing
Who am I?
Do I exist at all ?
Am I but a shadow —
Some one else’s dream —
Some one else’s nightmare.
Am I my own nightmare?
Are the demons true?
Are the demons real?
Who see’s this nightmare?
Who see’s this blood?
Who hears the screams?
Who dreams the dreams?
I am awake yet I am fast asleep.
And as I sleep I am wide awake.
I walk in burning snow while the sun it freezes my soul.
I am shattered —
Will I ever be whole?
Was there ever a true me?
I climb mountains yet I can not walk.
I sing in terror yet can not talk.
I cried today yet no tears fell.
Is this the end —
Is this hell?